I tried so hard. Yoga. Hot yoga. Red light therapy. Counseling. Volunteering. Happy Lamps. Salt Lamps. Essential Oils. Massage. Chiropractic Care. Traveling. Meditation. Infrared Sauna. Eating clean. A Million Different Supplements and Medications Taken Religiously. Pursuing Community. Reading. Gratitude Journals. I gave it my all. And it was never enough. For 9 months out of […]

My mornings while Ted traveled often looked the same: Wake up.  Waffles into toaster.  Grab milk. Fill cereal bowls.  Make eggs. Wake sleepy children using silly names for added effect/chutzpah and just to keep myself entertained. This particular morning started like any other.  I checked all the boxes on my task list that would make […]

May your weekend be filled with a double dose of awesome. May you take that risk you’ve been longing to try. When things seem to be falling around you – may you find a soft place to land. May you soar to new heights. And may you sense that God is right there to catch […]

My hands wouldn’t stop shaking.  Honestly, it was annoying, because somehow my shaky hands seemed to stop my breathing, which opened the dam of tears waiting in my eyes.  But it was time.  It was time to go and meet precious Walt – the sweet baby that I had prayed for since the moment I […]

Sweet wonderful anyone who is still here – I love you. Thank you.  The past year has held more than I could have imagined or anticipated.  Ted’s travel schedule amped up, we pulled my daughter out to homeschool her and I had to make the hard, but best choice to simply bow out of anything […]

I sat there taking it all in.  She found herself in a flurry of friends and hugs and “happy birthday” exchanges. That’s when IT happened.  One of the fourth grade boys walked into the room and locked eyes with me.  He moved closer and placed his hand on my shoulder.  He sighed gently, looked at […]

Because…this is magical.  And it happened.  And I still cannot stop laughing.  Bless the sweet family members who received this email… J’s Birthday and Christmas List (See parentheses for mom’s comments) Skateboard with NO TRAINING WHEELS “So many Skylanders and supercharger Skylanders and MOBILES. and undead sky/air/land vehicles.” CAKE – Just regular cake. I want […]

Yesterday was a happy mail day. Instead of walking out to the mail box to feel completely saddened by the lack of real mail (trying to put a spin on “Current Resident” is depressing), I walked out to a package.  Yes, this package was sent to myself by myself.  But there was mail.  FOR ME. […]

Today I crumbled.  It’s been brewing for a few weeks.  Summer slipped away and all the things were here and I wanted to run and hide from ALL THE THINGS.  That’s when the fear and the “holy buckets I can’t do this” and “will my kids be okay?!?!?!?!” began.   This morning, I sat with […]

I had given up.  It just seemed that my body loved the extra weight it was carrying and had decided that parting with it was lame and overrated. I had turned 32 and had survived carrying 3 children into the world so I figured maybe this is just what it is. A part of me […]