why?

why Atlanta?

I’ve gotten it quite a bit.

I usually look at my shoes.  And then try to avoid eye-contact as I mutter out some lame explanation involving oppressive winters, costs of living and other equally boring things.

Because the real answer is a lot harder.  It sounds sketchy.  Immature.  Odd.

The real answer?

We’re chasing a dream.

The dream?

Oh you…of course you would go there.

I guess it officially started 8 months ago.  At end of our Making Things Happen intensive in Las Vegas (which I will finally write about soon… pinky swear) Lara Casey had us close our eyes and dream.  She had us envision where we would be in 5 years.  The sights, the sounds, the friends, what we would have done, etc.  And in that moment – it was clear: it was Atlanta.

Ted had been tossing it around for a while.  As he looked at his dream of going back to school to get his PHD in sociology and then basically change the world in ridiculously awesome ways, Atlanta started calling his name.  I started dragging my feet.  Or more accurately inserting them like ice cleats into anything that was near me.

Change?  Um…cue heart palpitations.  And anxiety. A need for a brown paper bag to hyperventilate into…  And a whole bunch of “heck no, I won’t go.”

Though I moved around a lot as a kid, we’d been here now for 9 years.  And though it wasn’t perfect (Chicago, I love you in the summer but you drive me nuts in the winter.  I’m sorry…) it was comfortable.  It was familiar.  And it didn’t take a lot of work.

But the truth is…comfortable isn’t always what’s best.  You get soft.  You stop trying so hard.  And you can oftentimes stop truly living.

Which is what I had done.

So we find ourselves chasing a dream.  Though it’s not completely clear (a hazy mud would be a more accurate description) we just know there’s a dream there waiting.  It’s about how we want to live as a family.  It’s about being in the city.  It’s about having real community with other artists so that I have to grow.  (even though that TERRIFIES me.)  It’s about inspiring work.  It’s about having neighbors that don’t look the same as us.  It’s about getting outside ourselves in a new way.

So we’re trying to jump.  And follow a dream.  Even though this week has pushed back and tried to make us let it go.

It’s scary.  And yet, it’s scarier not to go.  Not to change.  Not to force ourselves to grow.  Because then…who would we become?  And what would we miss?

 

 

  • Caitlyn Williams - October 19, 2011 - 2:28 pm

    I’m guessing you probably like packing up boxes? Who could blame you?
    No, it’s totally awesome that you are moving and the reasons you are. It’s so strange how a place becomes your home. Never thought I’d long to be back in Phoenix while visiting California, or that I’d call this place home when I’m back in Missouri visiting family.
    Kaite’s parents live in Atlanta. There is a small smidgin of possibility that I will make it there someday!ReplyCancel

  • Andrea Siefert - October 19, 2011 - 3:57 pm

    I wanted to find you a quote that would help solidify your choice of change and I ran across too many that apply. Enjoy

    “Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.” -Andre Gide

    “Even if you stumble, you’re still moving forward.”

    “By changing nothing, nothing changes.” -Tony Robbins

    “All great changes are preceded by chaos.” -Deepak Chopra

    “When in doubt, choose change.” -Lily Leung

    “20 years from now you will be disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the one’s you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” -Mark TwainReplyCancel

  • Judi - October 19, 2011 - 5:11 pm

    Your honesty is refreshing. I love how you just open up and let it all out.
    Change is scarey but I wouldn’t have met some of the most incredible people if I hadn’t moved so much. I have some great lifelong friendships now and also places to stay if I want to visit.
    You will be wonderful and I know your life there will be incredible! Chicago’s loss will be Atlanta’s gain. (I hate the weather here too and if we didn’t have family here – I don’t think I would stay. I’m hoping by the time I retire – some of my family lives somewhere warm! Right now it’s Chicago and New Hampshire)
    You Go Girl!
    Love you,
    Judi GReplyCancel

  • jenni bailey - October 19, 2011 - 5:51 pm

    This really, really, really touched me. I am a fellow MTH alum and have felt exactly the same way this year as we actually did the opposite and decided to stay in our area. Sometimes it feels like the more valuable a decision is, the more uncomfortable it can be to finally make it. Wishing you luck and big MTH hugs as you chase that dream!ReplyCancel

  • Lisa - October 19, 2011 - 6:03 pm

    Good luck to you and your family on your adventure!!!! Sometimes you’ve gotta just do it….go for it….otherwise, one day you’ll look back and regret it. They say that when you look back on your life, you mostly regret the things you didn’t do, as opposed to the things you did. So live life to the fullest, chase your dream….and take amazing pictures while you’re at it!!!!ReplyCancel

  • Amanda Forbes - October 19, 2011 - 6:32 pm

    OH so proud of you!!! Seriously so so proud of you! Chase your dreams and don’t look back. Remember God always provides and we are here for you if you need it!ReplyCancel

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